Aaron's Day on 30/8/2007

Today I don really have the mood to blog...

Thanks Wendi for helping me today!!!

Tests are pretty fine(except GP), POA I got 20/25 marks!!!

Lots of Tears and Memories...

Thanks xiao ma(cheryl) talking to me... Thanks alot!!!




People... Cherish the people around you NOW!!!
Life is weak and unpreditable.
Learn to forgive and forget.


98 degrees - i do (cherish you)








It had been so long that we had not really talk to each other.
Thanks alot... I do appreciate it alot.

I am sry...

Today I am informed that one of my friend commit suicide... He is gone.

I felt so sorry for him.

I believe no one want to end his/her life. But just that something or somehow force the one to end his/her life.
I believe pain. Pain is the main factor.

Not everything inside us can recover after it is injured or hurt. Not like what our parent told us oftenly when we are young that injuries will recover after some time.

I believe no one in this world can understand what's inside him and what he had gone through, only he himself knew it all.

I don't agree what he done to himself is correct, commit suicide is a selfish act.

But I do feel sorry for him...



Try to understand......

Aaron's Day on 29/8/2007

Hello... Hi... Hey...

haha...




Today is a short and nice day for me. But tomorrow, it will be a nightmare, haha...
4 TESTS!!!

Econ!!! I had fallen in love with econ,haha, it is so simple(but not easy... ;p).

Hope I can scored well for econ... haha...

During break, edward, louis and i kept singing in the canteen... haha... Edward and I find it different to sing with louis. haha...
Edward and me formed a band called AE... haha. Cool... One day, We shall perform offically in front of people... haha...

After school, Edward, Althea, Raphael and me studying in canteen... haha.
We having lots of fun, haha... Lots of laughter...

haha.

After studies, I rush back to punggol and meet my bros for basketball. I am old already =(
Tired... haha.

After a short chat at coffee shop with them then BACK HOME!!!

Got to study!!! For tomorrow TESTS!!!




I am so happy that you are so happy and fine...
Don't stress yrself too much, k?
Good luck!!! All the way to the top!!!

心如刀割

心如刀割


我的天是灰色 我的心是蓝色
触摸着你的心 竟是透明的
你的悠然自得 我却束手无策
我的心痛即是 你的快乐
其实我不想 对你恋恋不舍
但什么让我 辗转反侧
不觉我说着说着 天就亮了
我的唇角尝到 一种苦涩
*我是真的为你 哭了
你是真的随他 走了
就在这一刻 全世界
伤心角色 又多了我一个
我是真的为你 爱了
你是真的跟他 走了
能给的我全都给了 我都舍得
除了让你知道 我心如刀割*

Aaron's Day on 28/8/2007

Today is a xxxxxxx day for me...

I am damn bloody pissed off...


Gp lesson: Watched 'Dead man walking', nearly cried. Near only, but didn't.
The 'dead man' said something like this before he is put to a room to be killed;
"I had never found real love from others or even from myself. Now I have to die for love."
I feel him, my heart sank...

Pe: Damn idiot teacher keep calling my name, Aaron! Aaron! Aaron!
Sick!

Break time: Nothing better to do, so I just keep myself busy by dibbling the basketball around the hall.

After school, after having meal with yi xian, wendi, edward, carol(Godma) and yuan cheng, I went back to school alone and what guess, it rains and I am wet again!!!

Initially, I am quite in the mood to study accounting and maths. Till, something happen and my dad called me asking me why do I still staying in school late today...
WE QUARREL!!!

Everything just spoil my mood just like that. Why can't people understand and care for me? Am I an alien? Or becos I am ugly and not lovely? Or becos I am not a person who licks boots?

haiz... I went back to punggol to meet my bro.
Chat abit then went home...

Interesting life?
So nice...









I saw your true colors,
I am so disappointed as a friend,
I can't believe its you,
I really hope I am wrong...




Be aware of your words,
Be aware of your actions,
Be aware of your people around you.




I don mind being hurt just to let you smile and be happy.

Tortured heart.

Invisible Man- 98 Degree

Invisible Man



Oh, oh, oh, yeah
You can hardly wait to tell all your friends
How his kisses taste sweet like wine
And how he always makes your heart skip a beat
Everytime he walks by

And if you're feeling down
He'll pick you up
He'll hold you close when you're making love
He's everything you been dreaming of, oh baby

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man
Oh, you don't see me baby
You probably spend hours on the phone
Talking 'bout nothing at all
It doesn't matter what the conversation
Just as long as he calls

Lost in a love so real, and so sincere
And you'll wipe away other's tears
Your face lights up whenever he appears

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man

I see you all the time baby
Huh, the way you look at him
I wish it was me, sweetheart
Boy, I wish it was me
But I guess it´ll never be...

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man
Oh, oh, oh, oh baby
The invisible man
You don't see me girl
But I love you
Yes, I love you
The invisible man
Oh, oh, oh, yeah, yeah
The invisible man
Baby, baby, baby, yeah

Aaron's Day on 27/8/2007

Hello...

Today, finally back to school, without my handphone( I forgot to charge it last night), anyway I don't really need it as it won't ring.

Today is quite boring too, boring lessons nearly bored me to tears especially MOB lesson. I am waiting for the bell to ring and didn't pay any attention to the lecture at all. Die... How to pass MOB like that?

Except Home Tutor lesson. haha. someone laughing at me !!! ( You know who r u), when Miss Tan explaining people who are slacker. Sound so familiar. Yah lah, its me in the PAST, now I got study already, can't afford to slack now.

haha.

I am quite lost in school today, I don't know where to sit in class, don't know what to do during break and don't know where to go after school.
haiz... 2 more years, how do I going to survive?

During break, I am damn bored, no mood to eat, didn't bring my t-shirt so can't play any sport or go running and I forgot to bring my storybook to read too.

And I am desperate to keep my mind occupied, so I end up sitting at the corner of basketball court watching 8 guys playing soccer. haha. Of course, I am do think of some unnecessary stuff too.

After school, waited for so long just to listen to Edward's singing.
Then me, Ben and Edward stay in school to study for a hour plus.
After studies, Edward went to meet his sister, me and ben went to Lok1 to eat, nothing nice there.

haiz... Nothing to do already, so we decide to go home. That's all... So boring... I simply can't bear with it.









You don't have to lie,
To make me happy,
I am aware and I know,
What is my position,
And where I do stand,
In you...


Nvm... I will forget what you had said and treat it as you didn't said those words to me at all...

Aaron's Day on 26/8/2007

Another day had passed after a few mins...

Today, I can't focus at all, keep quarreling with my parent, I tried to understand them, but they didn't do their part.
I left my house around 4pm to bugis. I had my breakfast+lunch at there,
CHICKEN RICE !!!

Nice chicken, nice rice, nice soup and nice price but didn't give me nicer life... haha.
After the chicken rice, I make my way to ART FRIENDS to get some stuff for designing the lamp.

Guess what I saw?









50 cents ice cream at almost everywhere near bugis market.
haha. It used to be 1 dollar, now out of sudden, most of them selling at 50 cents.
haha. Make me think of econs. haha. For more information of econs, you can go Xiao ma(Cheryl) blog and check it out yrself. haha.
After spending almost an hour in ART FRIENDS and still can't find what I want.
That's me on the way up to ART FRIENDS.






I went to city hall for gelare(ice cream waffle), I am too bored, wanted something to cheer me up. But failed lah, I ordered 3 scoop of ice cream and a big waffle, end up I can't finish it(my mood was very unstable recently), wasted...

Then I went to meet Ming hui and Ben tan, we went to the orchard's ART FRIENDS but still can't find what we want. We gave up and went home.

Reached at night, quarrel with my dad again.

That's all... Having Happy life...
Wow.. So happy...








I never know ice cream waffle still taste so good with tears... haha.

Aaron's Day on 25/8/2007

Bored!!! Today is damn bloody boring, thinking too much. Parent nagging at me almost every time I see them. What the hell, they don't know what I had gone through and what shit I have in my mind. No one understand me, no one care, no one know me.

I can't focus at all, can't study. What a life I have, I am so happy about it.

Nothing much happen today.










I wanna talk to you,
I wanna look into your eye,
I wanna you to understand,
BUT
I don't know you,
You don't know me too,
What a nice thing to me...

Aaron's Day on 24/8/2007

Hello... I am back home..

Haiz... I don't like to be back home. Nvm... Anyway thanks Edward for everything, I really really really enjoy myself alot. Thanks... Haha......

Today(Friday, 24/8/2007) is a short and simple day, school ends at 12.45pm. But i am very very very tired. After school, me, yi xian, wendi and si yuan went to school library. We were listening to music, yet end up I nearly forgot about my math homework. haha...

After finish all my homework, I went to the school basketball court to help out the westzone basketball competition, WOW... so many small kids there...
They are small but they are like a beast in the court, they played pretty tough, STUN...

Today... Haha... Chinese lesson is the most interesting thing, Teacher called us to compose a song or a poem about the suffering o rubber tree... Haha... Me, yi xian and wendi as a group decided to compose a song. The song can be sang and rap... Cool?
One stone kills two birds. Haha... So fun... I were standing in front of the whole singing the song.

Guess wat? My teacher said I have a nice voice... Haha... So happy to heard that comment, finally my vocal will recognised. YEAH..........

After I put all my bag and stuffs at home, i meet wei en, nothing much beside going to compress point and playing dota at his place.

Haha...

Tomorrow I have to study as I had bought a math guidebook just now with wei en... Haha... Hope I can I transform myself into Math wizard
by tomorrow.

AARON !!! Tomorrow !!! MATH WIZARD !!! CAN?

Can! But see how 1st... Haha...

haha... I lame lah, too tired already... My body ache, I wish someone will massage my back and shoulder.












Every sight of you,
Make me love you even more,
I know it's wrong,
It shouldn't be like this way...




If you are lucky, you won't get to see me anymore from next year onwards, i'm sry4 wat i had done...

Aaron's Sleepless Night...

I am still at Edward place, had not done any homework yet... What the hell...
I can't sleep, so late already, tomorrow got school somemore... Ah...

Edward now sleeping but I still can't sleep... Ah.........................








I can't eat well
I can't sleep well
I can't control myself

Since that day...

Aaron's Day on 21/8/07

My head ache... Too stress I guess...

Today is a very very tiring day. I am very sleepy. I skip 2 lessons and 1 lecture. Die... Don't know will I get into any trouble? I just wanna sleep...
Today after school, Edward and I stay back for night study. We chat(realised time flied fast), we laugh and we play. Haha... We kept playing the song, I think we really have the talent of acting. Haha... Maybe we can join the school's drama club. Haha... Edward...

I can't finish the Econ homework!!! Have not prepared for tomorrow econ test. Die...
Have to do it now... Again, can't sleep early.

Haha... Tomorrow I am not going home after school, I will be staying overnight at Edward's place. Haha... Don't need to go home tomorrow.

Overall, Today is fine one, till i dreamt in the library.












What a silly dream that makes me cried...

There's things I wanna tell you long ago...
But it seen pointless to me to tell you now...

Aaron's Day on 18/8/07

I am late!!!

I am late for the CAT(Certified Accounting Technician) talk, I'm just managed to sit for the talk for around 5 mins only and do not know what's the hell is going on.
After the talk, I went to marina square for my solo window shopping. haha...
Lots of great memories there...

City hall... A familiar place for me and I can't believe i am able to spend my 7 hours there alone, walking around city hall. I went to marina square, citylink mall, raffle city, suntec city and then esplanade for fire works.

In suntec city I saw Edward!!! Edward was with his friends watching dance competition. The dancers are good, very very good... One of them is a guy, nonono... i think is a gay. haha...

He is damn hot and gay... haha... But he is still good.

After the competition... Then i make my way to the Esplanade for fireworks.
The fireworks is unbelievable, i had never seen such a great fireworks in my life(maybe i had, but i forgot.), I am sry that I did not have any photo of it...


After enjoying all the wonders, I did not go home. Ah... Not so soon...
I found a mini concert over there, great singer from oversea, his vocal is godlike(i hope i have his)...
His voice can touch your heart and make you wanna dance with him and his music.
One of song titled 'Skirts', great song, I wish i could sing him. Ah... Maybe not.
I think i can sing better than him. haha... Kidding...

After 'Skirts', I slowly walk to mrt station and back to punggol to meet up my bros for supper(For the whole i only ate 2 breads from breadtalk)






Nononononono... I think i know what you think...
Boring, lonely and emo walking around in city hall alone? You are wrong. haha...
I learnt alot and see lots of stuff happening in this world.
I realised the world is turning very very ugly due to lack of compassion.


Busy man bang onto a old lady and continue to walk away without saying sorry...
Vugular language used in almost every sentence the guy said to a female friend in a arcade...
Inpatient people standing in front of the train opening, causing difficulties for the passagers to alight from the train...

So many many ugly stuff of human i had seen. And reflected the incidents of selfishness from the people around me. I really felt strongly that the one of the main factor that cause unhappiness in so many people's life is selfishness.

You? Agree? Think! Think of the past when you are depressed, disappointed or unhappy, is it because of your selfishness or someones selfishness?

The world is ugly, covered by greed and selfishness and more people are hurt by the people around them.
I do not want myself to start to regret for what I had done that had cause pain and unhappiness to the people around me when i am holding on with my last breathe.

That is what i had learnt yesterday...










I will try to change and control my own greed to avoid being selfish and to prevent hurting the people around me.

Hello!

Here is my blog. I had a hard time dealing with it. Yet I am still not happy wth it. Those blogger pros pls help me. haha...

In this blog I will be writing my logic and my days. Any comments pls use the tagboard... Pls use it. I spent 1 hour finding it and install it into this blog. In sudden I felt myself useless... haha... blogger noob...

haha... Anyway, thanks for reading my blog...






May the people around me be blessed...